My last day in school ……

It was the last day for all of us in that dream lands -our school. All the exams were over. Examinations didn’t bother us much but the fact that today was the last day bothered us a lot. Our eyes were watery, noses were red and there was an unusual in our campus … even birds forgot to sing … the yellow flowers from the   gulmohar tree bidden us the last fare well

And after completing all the official formalities ….we all  gathered around  a huge banyan  tree  which was  in our campus  , it was so huge and big that we all ( my friends ) called it as  the grandpa tree  …..Every one gathered there was crying … nobody was able to speak …. And   the  shadow  silence  approached again  …I felt  this fare well more  sentimental than the official one  ……. We all greeted best wishes to each other and waved them all good bye. It was very difficult for me realize that today was the last day   for our togetherness …. I felt as if my heart had stopped beating  …I felt terrible because  I had never imagined a world beyond  my school ……

After a minute from the crowd one of  my best friend Deepthi came running to me …she  came near me and  holded  my hands  tightly to her heart  ,  her eyes were filled with tears …she was not able  to speak  but I understood every thing that she wished to tell me as she  was so close to my heart  and gathering all her strength  she asked me “ chitra did you tell it to him ” ?  I became silent again …  but tears came from my eyes  ……she hugged me and whipped my tears  she reminded me that it was the last day “ chitra if you didn’t say it to him today you may never be able to say it again “ it was a thunderclap to my ears . yes  it was true  if I would remain silent again I’ll never get a chance to express myself to him ….. I felt as if the world was revolving around me ……. 

I felt so tired that deepthi took me to a stone bench which was in the campus garden the cool shady garden and the cool breeze made me recollect those old sweet memories which will remain in my heart for ever ….  And among those the most memorable  for me was the date February 14^th  “ the valentines day “ we all celebrated that day very nicely as all the youngsters did but for me feb 14^th had no specialty ….. but , that year it was special for me  because that day he – Neranjan  gifted me a beautiful red rose and whispered “ I love you “  in my ears .

I did‘t know what to do so I kept looking at him as if I had never seen him ….. He smiled at me and went back to his class.

All the girls in my class came running towards me shouting “oh! Lucky one you got him” and I too saw some jealous and angry eyes looking at me as if I have stolen something from them ….

After that incident I have never talked to him  and when ever I saw him I just  ran away from him ….but for that he had never disturbed  me or torched me  …. But every 14^th of feb he presented me with a red rose …….

I too loved him but I never expressed it to him as I knew it would affect his and also my studies. so I never told him “ I love you “ I kept this as a secreat for ever …

Suddenly one of my junior came to me and gave me a red rose and a card tied together with it and in the card it was written like this “for my love mine only love”reading those lines tears came rolling down my cheeks and without thinking even for a minute grabbing deepthi’s hand I ran towards him to tell him that I too loved him as he did ….but I was too late. When I reached there he had already got into the bus he didn’t saw me but I was able to see him very clearly his eyes were also wet …. I felt as if I was going to faint ….I was not able to raise my voice to call him back  ….I was only able to look at his eyes as I did … after a minute the bus started moving away and from me he too …. I looked at him until he got disappeared from my eyes …..with a heart full of love for him and with a belief that I would meet him again ……

  Prayers

Chitra .